life is messy.

Events in my life have rarely worked according to plan. what has thrown me off track the most have been rather big curve balls.

over the last 10 years I have been trying to get some direction with my life, coming into contact with several ideas. Some have helped me make sense of life, some have not.

My journey of making sense of life and bringing some order to it isn’t over yet. This blog will be my highlight reel as I try to combine the concepts of Bullet Journalling, Journalling, And Day Zero Project.

This blog is meant for anyone else also looking to connect and share in the messy journey.

Cornwall Lockdown

Cornwall Lockdown

The lockdown initiated by government due to COVID-19 has been a weird time for me, though I’m sure a lot of people around the world can relate.

We all have our own reasons for why it has been weird, and for me it has been equal parts bliss and chaos:

  • I was forced to move out of a house share because of my contact with COVID-19 patients, which was really stressful at the time, however, I’ve found a much more peaceful living arrangement as a result

  • I have been working like crazy, more continuously than I have in years, and I haven’t really had the time to notice that the world has stopped in its tracks.

  • I have fallen in love with Newquay, and feel at home here, but it’s so far away from my partner and my family.

  • I have been trying to increase my business knowledge and personal development, but there’s so much more online content to sift through to get to relevant information

South Fistral Beach

South Fistral Beach

I tried hard to keep track of the days since the UK Lockdown started, but it was surprisingly easy to lose count of the days after the first week. But now that we’ve been in for 7-ish weeks, we’re starting to come out of it.

Boy howdy, I’m not ready for that yet.

It isn’t because I’m afraid of catching COVID-19. Ive been working with COVID-19 positive patients for weeks now and I remain asymptomatic. I’m not ready for the Lockdown to be over because I’m enjoying the empty beaches too much. I’m enjoying the quietness of the streets when I walk to the shop and the emptiness of the roads when I have to drive to work. I’m enjoying not having to fight my way through supermarket aisles.

Newquay, Cornwall

Newquay, Cornwall

It doesn’t sound like I miss the days before Lockdown, does it? Which isn’t true entirely because I miss certain things: going to the gym, going to yoga classes, and sitting in coffee shops. I miss travelling by airplane restriction free.

But I will tell you what I do miss pre-Lockdown: the lack of hysteria if people aren’t strictly 2m apart. If that wind is blowing, even 6m can’t save you. I also miss the days when people didn’t walk around with face masks and gloves incorrectly or bulk buying household items because they were panic buying or trying to “be productive”.

I thought the pressure was bad to be productive before COVID-19, but this increase is a bit out of hand. The perception that people are all in a position to be productive and creative is unrealistic given all the uncertainty. As someone who has lived in constant upheaval and uncertainty for 3 years, it’s very difficult to achieve those 2 under unstable conditions. Sure you can be inspired, and certain situations require out of the box thinking, but that’s never a guarantee. We need periods of stability in between all the chaos to capitalise on the inspiration or insights.

So it’s rather ironic for me that in a time of global uncertainty and instability that my life has seen the most stability.

Newquay, Cornwall

Newquay, Cornwall

Freedom

Freedom

Happy Birthday Mom

Happy Birthday Mom